...I fell victim to the rumors. Many months ago I believed a rumor of a 10 or 12-day referral batch. When referrals came out it was a two-day batch. I hit bottom and I hit HARD. I SWORE I would never again fall prey to the rumors. It hurts too much.
When this last ‘referral craze’ went around I jumped right into the web of rumors. Big Bear and I started to actually think we could see a referral before summer. Our thought was if CC** could do three weeks worth of referrals this month then that would put us three weeks out from our LID. For about 48 hours all I could think about was our referral, how much we had to do, and all the trouble with my social worker and renewing our paperwork. I woke up at 3am thinking about the possibility of getting our referral before we get our paperwork. (That’s a whole separate story that has me pulling my hair out!)
In all honesty I am not really surprised by the revised rumor of a two-day batch. It’s happened before. I am sad. I am especially sad for my friends who should have been in this batch. All of you are in my thoughts.
As for me, I’m going back to burying my head. The only time I’ll be visiting RQ is to check out the baby pictures, and that is it for me. I’m much more sane when I’m blissfully ignorant about when and how many referrals are coming in.